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Well, here I go. I've been told this is very therapeutic. I need a place to vent. My friends are tired of hearing me whining. Oh, some days I could post something happy. We'll see. :-)

I'm a stay at home, homeschooling mom. I have been married to M for 19 yrs. It will be 20 on May 13th. My oldest is 18 and started tech school for diesel the day his sister, my youngest, turned three. There is another son and daughter between them. And, believe it or not, I am a born again Christian, a true believer. I'm not perfect. I'm forgiven. Thank goodness! I can see God's fingerprints all over my life. I want my life to reflect Him in it. Some days I do that better than others.

I was supposed to go to the doctor yesterday but the secretary called right before I was ready to go and told me the doctor was running a hour late. He always runs late! He is a super doctor but he's soooooooooo slow. Well, I told them to reschedule me then because my appt. would have been running into our suppertime. My mom is freaking because I quit taking all of my medicines. I can't stand taking pills and the way dh has been yelling about the medical bills I have no desire to go or spend money on prescriptions. I asked God to take care of me. He knows me better than anyone else. Dh was going on and on about paying for these doctor bills the other day and I asked him what his problem was. I said, "I go and buy $1,500 earrings and you don't say squat-NOTHING, but I get a bill for my health and you complain every chance you get!" He then said something about just having my thyroid removed and being done with it. I told him he was the last person I wanted to discuss it with because he is just concerned with the money end of it, not the fears I have about all the quack doctors, who will school the kids, take care of N, clean the house, cook the meals. He won't help. He'll have to go to work. He didn't say anymore.

And there you have it. Wasn't so bad. Or was it?